During the summer holidays, I went to a camp called New Wine. It was amazing! My sister, Meka, and I found a really good group of friends and we had so much fun. One day in the evening service, I felt God was speaking to me and I am going to share what happened.
Recently, I have been having thoughts in my mind telling me I’m too fat or not pretty enough and really knocking down my self-confidence. It was as if these thoughts were whispering in my ear everywhere I went. So I decided I wanted to ask God for peace and to get the evil comments out.
The Holy Spirit’s Peace
In that evening service, as I was standing up and praying, I felt myself sucking in my belly in case anyone was watching or thinking I’m big. At that moment, I experienced the Holy Spirit. I felt a hand resting on my tummy and pulling it out and the thing is, I wasn’t in control of it, it just happened.
God’s Words For Me
Then I got an image of a blank screen and loads of words flashing up. For example, I saw the words ‘beautiful’, ‘you’re gorgeous’, ‘you’re my child’, ‘don’t put yourself down – I created you’.
All of a sudden, I burst out crying. Later on, the speaker gave a prophesy. She said, ‘I feel like there is someone in this room who thinks they’re not good enough, not pretty enough and feels like people judge them constantly’. So I went up to her afterwards and told her that what she said tonight impacted me and related to my life so much. I thanked her and she prayed that I would be ‘all in’ and confident in who in am.
A couple of nights after this, I had a dream. I dreamt I was in a strong current and whenever I passed one wave, another one pushed me back. Finally, I managed to get out. A man was waiting for me and he said to me, ‘are you all in?’. I replied with a ‘yes!’. This dream helped me realise that I need to be all in for Jesus – no turning back. I need to be sure of my decision and follow him no matter what.
Starting to Believe
Having had this amazing experience at New Wine, I am starting to feel more confident. I am starting to believe that I am perfect just the way God made me. I am starting to believe that I shouldn’t be ashamed of the way God made me. I am starting to believe that I shouldn’t let people put me down.